So we are sitting pretty right now at 29.2% done with the deployment. I wish it was more. I've been having a really mopey last couple of days but that is because I haven't talked to him. I keep missing him online. The first couple days he was out on a mission and wasn't able to get on a computer and then yesterday I had to have two root canals done, and then today I was laying on the couch and had the computer on the couch with me and I ended up falling asleep and the stupid computer didn't go off when he came online. I was so upset. I just really miss my husband and I want him back so bad. I keep counting down the days until R&R and I am so excited for that but I want him home for good. It's going to be hard as hell to see him go back there. I hope the two weeks that he is here, time just stops and drags on. Sigh.

I am however so insanely happy being in this new place. And the animals love it too. It's awesome. So big and they love their fence; I love being able to put them OUT in their fence. :) And I love love love my new neighbor. Kara and her friend Chandra. I instantly hit it off with them and I am so happy to have someone to talk to who knows exactly what I'm going through with this deployment. We hang out every day. They are awesome girls. I did have Jennifer staying with me for about 3 weeks because her and Chris are still having issues. I don't even know what to think or say about that. I love the girl to death but she has just changed so much the last few months. She is almost a different person completely. And she drove me crazy while she was here. Oh boy did she, haha. But she left a couple days ago and moved back in with Chris.. supposedly just as roommates until September because then she is going to take the kids and move back to Kentucky.. however she is leading Chris on like crazy because she is making out with him and when he stops it she gets angry and cries.. ugh, I hate being in the middle of someone else's drama. Seriously, I hate it. And I got into a fight with both of them last week because I told them how much I couldn't deal with it. I'm not picking sides and I won't be in the middle. I will be friends to both of them and listen to whatever they need but that is it. And I think Jennifer is a little mad at me because I'm friends with Chris and I've been talking to him. But he has been a really good friend to ME lately.. helping me get through the deployment, giving me advice and honestly just being a really good listener and friend. I appreciate all he has done for me. Anyways, I hope that whatever happens between the two of them, that they will be happy. They both deserve happiness.

Not a whole lot else going on. Just spending LOTS of money on these animals. In the last three weeks I have spent 850 dollars on them. Between the vaccinations, microchips, Odin's fight, and then Harvey's little flu bug.. yeah, 850$. And then in 5 days Biff is supposed to be getting neutered and that is going to be another 250 dollars. I want to cancel the appointment because it is so much money but he needs to have it done. I want to save up for R&R but it's hard constantly spending so much money on the pets. Of course they are all  happy and healthy now and that is really all that matters, it just sucks having to spend so much cash. I am going to go back to work R&R.. thinking about going back into waitressing just because the money is so much better and I like to think I'm somewhat good at it. :) Next week though I am going to go down to Barton Community College and look into getting my GED. I've procrastinated on that for 10 years now. I honestly have been too scared to do it. I'm afraid I'm going to fail it. Failure is a huge fear of mine. So I plan on taking the pre-test and seeing what I need to work on, then taking some of the classes that they offer to study up for it.. and then take the test. I really want to pass. And then I would like to start taking some other kind of classes to better myself. And I've been wanting to do that for awhile.. and I think it would be great if I did it while Randy is deployed because hopefully I can be making good money doing something I enjoy doing and we can be happy in that department. I don't want him to be the only one bringing in income. He's been pretty awesome and he spoils me so much. I love my husband.

Well, I better finish this up. I just haven't written in awhile so I thought I'd blog a little. It always helps to write out my thoughts. I just think sometimes that I'm too depressing because all I usually write about is how much I miss my husband.

Oh! And he got another award! For his last mission, he was called out in front of hundreds of soldiers and was given a certificate, a coin, and some promotion points. I am so damn proud of him. He amazes me more and more every day, I swear I am the luckiest girl in the world. He's saving lives.. I couldn't be more proud of him. I was even able to see some pictures that someone took of him recieving the award and shaking the guys hand. I'm definitely impressed. Like I have said 1,000 times.. I love this man! :)

Also, 66% done until R&R.. wish it would speed up!

So I've officially been in our new place for 4 days now. I am soooooo in love with it. It's huge! I wish Randy was here with me though. :(

I do have to say that I LOVE my new neighbor and her best friend. I have gotten so close to them in the few days that I've been here. It's seriously so nice to actually have good friends that know what I'm going through and who are so awesome. My first day here they gave me a free ticket to the Country Stampede.. how cool was that? And they didn't even know me except for a few minutes talking the night before while we were outside smoking. Right now she's doing my laundry for me, haha. I really like them though. I'm so glad I moved in here. I am soo happy to be here.

Tomorrow I have a dentist appointment, just a tooth cleaning, but afterwards I'm going to head to the apartment and clean the shit out of it. I really don't want to because I hate the landlords, but I need to. I need to replace the burner thingies.. but I'm so broke right now until payday. This move cost more than I thought it would for us.. Anyways, I gotta see if my mom will loan some money so I can take care of that. After that we should be good.

So my new neighbors have a friend named Amy, and her husband is deployed with Randy.. I met her today.. anyway, there is a rumor going around I guess that the boys are coming home early! I know it's just a rumor but I can't help but get extremely excited about the possibility of it. I know if it doesn't happen then I'm going to be so disappointed, but I have my fingers and toes crossed so tightly! And it's still quite a ways off, but earlier than expected and any earlier is okay with me. I really miss him. It was starting to get a little easier, but lately I just find myself crying for no reason at all and more often. I hate the seperation. I love this man so much and it hurts to be without him. And I just want him to be okay.. there's a lot of horrible scary shit going on over there and I'm so afraid for him. I just want him to be okay. I want him to come home to me safe and sound and all in one piece. I don't want him to have PTSD when he comes home. I just want my husband back, damnit. I need him.

Sigh, anyways, I'm gonna head out and have a cigarette and then come back in and catch up on some True Blood. Oh my gosh, I have DVR now.. never had one before.. haha it's pretty awesome. I'm spoiled. My husband spoils the shit out of me. I love it. :) <3

So it's been awhile since I wrote last. Basically.. I am in our new beautiful home here in Fort Riley. It's a 3 bedroom townhome, and the dogs are loving all the space. It's a little bittersweet though since I wish my Randy was here. The movers all came  yesterday and packed everything up and brought it here so now its down to me to just unpack everything. I already have internet and cable hooked up but I'm thinking about installing a phone since I get really crappy service down here. It works, but the calls are constantly getting dropped and I really don't want that to happen to one of Randy's phone calls.

Anyways, today is his birthday. I wish he was here to spend it with me. My husband is 29 years old. I can't believe it. Still as handsome as ever though. :) I wish I could make him a cake and just spoil him to pieces today. I guess I'll just have to make it up to him when he comes home.

Other than that, nothing really new is going on. Just staying busy unpacking everything. The new home is beautiful though. I am so happy here. Totally in love with this place.

OH! And 20.6% done with this deployment. I can't believe I'm almost a quarter of the way through this damn thing! Just a couple weeks and I'll be there. EFF YOU DEPLOYMENT! Unless you want to speed up and send my husband home quickly... :)

So I'm home. Things have been good, the rest of the ride was pretty uneventful. I am very happy to be home but sad at the same time because my Randy is not here with me. Sigh. It's definitely hard being here alone. But I have a pretty busy week ahead of me. Monday I have a dentist appointment because right now I have an abscessed tooth. My left cheek looks like I have a golfball in it. It sucks. At least the antibiotics have kicked in so I'm not in any pain anymore. Yay for that!

I also got two phone calls during the trip back home from my lovey. It totally made me feel so much better and happier. Everytime I hear his voice I get a huge smile on my face. I love that man. Tonight I was having an emotional breakdown over a lot of things. For one, we need new tires on the car, we also need new brakes and to have the rotors grinded down. Well I got in the car tonight to go to the store and the effing dashboard lights don't work anymore. It just made me so upset that I just started crying about everything. I hate being back in this apartment without him here. I miss Randy. So much that it hurts to breathe sometimes. Anyways, with all that going on, I was pretty upset, and he came online. I told him how I am going to have a busy week this week.. and my dear sweet husband who is always thinking of me even from 6,000 miles away, says to me, "make sure you have some fun in between your busy week, go see a movie and treat yourself to something nice". I fucking love him. He always knows how to make me feel better. I am so lucky!!

Anyways, so on Monday I have that dentist appointment, Tuesday I have the mover guy coming over to take a quick inventory of everything we have. Wednesday I have my doctor's appointment, and then on Thursday I have to go to a moving brief on post. And thennnn next Tuesday I get the keys to our new place! It's awesome! And then on the 25th the movers will be here and I will officially be all moved in! I can't wait, I am so excited. Just wish Randy was here to share in my excitement.

Anywho, I better get to sleep. I am a tired girl and it is 3 AM. I've been watching Weeds on netflix and this show is addicting! But it is taking my mind off of other things so that is great. :)

Also, before I forget.. 62.3% until R&R, and we are 16.7% done with this damn deployment. It's getting there. Slowly but surely. He's been gone 61 days. I can't believe I've made it this far. :) There is a lot left to go, but we're gonna make it. It will be okay. :) Just can't wait until I get my husband back!

1/3 of the way back home to Kansas! I'm in Boise, Idaho right now at a Motel 6. I love these motels because they are cheap, nice and they don't charge extra for pets!
Been a pretty good trip so far. This is the same route we took when we moved to Kansas. Kinda weird how on the way up here my GPS gave me different directions, but whatever. Only problem I've had is about 10 minutes into the trip, Lily threw up in her cat carrier. So I pulled over, cleaned it out, and continued. Well a little while later I look in her cage and she is drooling.. like thick clear drool and it's hanging out both sides of her mouth about 2 inches long. So I start freaking out of course, call my mom and she says it is probably just nerves.. so I drive a little more and see that she is still drooling bad. So I look on my GPS for the nearest pet store. Find one in Cle Elum about 20 minutes away, call them up, explain the situation and he says he has the perfect thing for her. So I drive over there and he gets me these pheramone collars. Kinda like the spray stuff I bought for Harvey. Anyway I put it on her and she stopped drooling! Yay! But then she didn't want to drink any water or let me pet her so I was like crap. Prayed for her, had my mom pray for her and then she started getting a little better. Since we've been at the motel, she's been acting fine, but she doesn't want me to touch her.. she keeps moving away from me when I do. I hope she's just mad at me and she's not sick or anything. :(  I just worry about my animals so much. Especially when I'm on these long drives far from home or anyone I know.

But I'm feeling pretty positive that everything is going to work out and I'm gonna get home safe. I believe in the Lord and I know he is with me and going to keep us safe/happy/healthy.

Anywho, sleeping pill is kicking in so time to go cuddle with the pups. :)

Such a great day today!

Ya know, 6:00 AM phone calls from Afghanistan are the best wake up calls, EVER! After almost a month and a half of not hearing his sweet voice, he called me! He was finally able to get the phone system up and working. It made my entire day starting out hearing from him. I was smiling the entire time. It was so nice to hear his voice. Just relaxed me and made everything so much better. I love this man so much!

So I called up Picerne again and the lady was busy so I left a message. I jumped in the shower and she called me back! WE HAVE HOUSING! I get the keys June 21st! I am so insanely excited. She was telling me the different neighborhoods that have things available, and she was talking about this apartment building and she asked if I would prefer upstairs or downstairs.. and I told her with the dogs, downstairs would be easier for them and she was like, "oh that is right, you have two dogs! well an apartment just isn't going to work.. you're going to want a yard!" And I was like, "aw, well that's nice but I usually just walk them several times a day so its no big deal anyway", and she says, "well sometimes it's just easier to throw them in the yard and get it over with!" I was like, "SWEET!" So she continues looking and she says she is going to put me in a 3 bedroom townhome on the historic main post. THREE BEDROOMS! OMG! I couldn't believe it! She said the third room is pretty small, it would make a perfect nursery or office area. Works for us! Plus we have our own basement, and a fenced in backyard that is ours! It is 2 stories as well. Bottom floor has a patio, huge kitchen, dining room, living room, then upstairs is the 3 bedrooms and the bathroom. It's 1100 square feet.That is so big for us! I am just so happy and so excited. I can't wait to talk to Randy about it. I sent him an email but I can't wait to hear what he thinks. He's going to be thrilled. I can't wait for him to come home to our new home! I haven't moved in yet nor am I back in Kansas yet either but I'm already checking out craigslist for furniture! I'm going to need some couches and a kitchen table, and a washer and dryer because there are hookups! There is also a dishwasher! I'm going to have a dishwasher! Ahhh! I am so excited I am ready to move in right now! Now my only little issue is that we're going to have to come  up with 641$ on the 21st. Which I think we can do just fine, it's just going to leave us a little short. So I cannot spend anymore money on anything except to get me home and the little necessities. I think we'll be alright though.

Also I am leaving on Sunday to head back to Kansas. Ready to go home but not quite ready to make that long drive back there. Ugh! At least my puppies are good and used to being in the car. Ready to go home though.

I have a bit of a stomach ache and I want to go to sleep but I really want Randy to come online so I can talk to him about all this awesome housing stuff! Can't wait to hear what he thinks! :P

Oh my gosh!

So on our way to Aunt Sher's house to have dinner with Ty and Vanessa, I checked my voicemail.. It had been a couple days.. well on the 3rd one I get a call from a  lady named Cheryl from Picerne! She asked if I was still interested in moving on post and when I would want to move! Then gave me a call back number. I can't believe I didn't check earlier! I hope that I'm not too late. I can only imagine that the only reason they called is because they have something available for us! I am so fricking pysched right now. Seriously so excited. I can't think of any other reason why she would call us. Even though we're still 170 on the housing list, so that part doesn't make any sense.. but why else would she ask me when I wanted to move in?!?! Ugh, if only I had checked my voicemail sooner! I am calling first thing in the morning to find out what is going on. How unbelievably awesome would it be if when I got back to Kansas I'd be able to pack everything up and move on post? Aghh, I am so excited! But I am going to be so disappointed if it's about something else entirely. Although I just can't imagine why else she would call and ask when I wanted to move?

The wait is killing me! I can't wait until the morning!